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Wow what a year indeed! We’re a few weeks into 2019 and it’s taken a while for me to process and appreciate what happened in 2018. It has been a bit of whirlwind and so much has changed. I still don’t think I really give myself credit for the work I’ve done and what I’ve achieved. Hopefully writing it out for you to read will help.


The year started with me working full-time as a Personal Assistant (PA) in a private hospital. I hated it, I felt like my soul was being sucked out of me every day.

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That’s probably a bit dramatic but being a PA didn’t bring me any joy. I’d already qualified as a Sports Massage Practitioner so was eager to start my new business.

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I have to be honest, my confidence wasn’t in a great place so the idea of launching a new business was a little bit daunting.

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Asking For Help…

I’m not someone who will easily ask for help. I knew I needed someone who didn’t know me. Who would be completely honest with me. Also someone who would give me a kick up the *** when I was allowing fear to stop me from progressing.

I made the call and arranged counselling. He was amazing and encouraged me to put myself and my health before everyone else. He taught me that I had to prioritise my feelings over other people’s. I used to go along with what other people wanted even if it was detrimental to my happiness.

My counsellor explained that I needed to focus on pushing myself out of my comfort zone. This will help to increase my confidence little by little. Not the big ‘jump out of a plane’ stuff but the smaller stuff, the ‘go to the cinema by myself’ stuff. This is something I never had the courage to do for fear of other people judging me for being on my own.

Lessons Learnt…

Quote on pink background - what other people think of me is none of my business (wow what a year)

Another thing I’ve learnt is who cares if someone sees me doing something on my own. Who cares if they make a negative judgement about it. That’s their problem and is definitely an opinion that I don’t need in my life.

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I’ve made a lot of changing to my life since 1st January 2018 and here are just some of them. I have:

  • Started meditation
  • Restarted doing yoga a few times a week. I’ve added my strength training onto the end of each session so I have no excuse.
  • Started swimming and cycling again after over 25 years of refusing to do both due to lack of self-esteem and confidence.
  • Completed the Bournemouth marathon and got a PB!
  • Hurt my back and had to cancel clients. I actually took my own advice about healing and let my body recover properly.
  • Decluttered my house and given a lot of items to charity. I’ve also sold some on Facebook Marketplace which is so easy and convenient.
  • Turned my spare room into a proper office where I enjoy spending time.
  • Met with other small business owners regarding future collaboration
  • Turned down a massage job at the Def Leopard concert as it would’ve meant rearranging or cancelling my own clients and they are my priority.
  • Spent a lot of quality time with my dog, Winston, who is getting on a bit and turned into a little old man.
dog called winston asleep on his bed (wow what a year)

Being Brave…

The biggest change of 2018 was when I made the decision to leave the safety of my full-time job with a guaranteed income. I decided to go it alone and become a full-time self-employed Sports Massage Practitioner.

Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t all rainbows and lollipops. It was probably one of the hardest years of my life so far. I’ve had a lot of moments when things didn’t go the way I wanted them to and I didn’t think I was going to make it.

I’ve learnt from each and every one of them and, after a lot of tears and stress, turned them all into a positive step forward. I did it. I’m living my dream career and helping my clients to fulfil their potential as well. Winner winner!

girl standing and giving a high 5 to herself

I have an amazing group of friends who have been there for me every step of the way and supported me. We’ve eaten a lot of cake together and I’ve run a lot of miles with some of them. They’ve helped me see how strong I am and that I’m capable of doing anything I put my mind to. They are my biggest cheerleaders and I am so grateful for them.

What are my dreams for 2019? Well that’s a new blog post in itself!

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(Featured image by Pexels from Pixabay)